So many things have happened in the last month, but we're still masked to each other. I've been wondering though, if he knows who I am but wants me to stay masked. That is his right, and I'm afraid that if I push it, I might push myself right out of his life.

If you can believe it, he even managed to get transferred to the apartment complex that O'Connor and I are in. And seriously thank God for O'Connor! He still comes to Master's suite to watch us sometimes, and I almost feel guilty for enjoying it so much.

Edge, aka Lt JG Barnes, is awesome. We've only gotten to meet her a couple times, and hope we get to see more of her. O'Connor is still holding out hope that she's kinky like us, and I'm hoping for him too.

And now off to daydream about what Master and I are going to try on Wednesday!

There are NO words. NONE.

OH. MY. GOD.

Did I do something wrong in a past life? Forget to use my turn signal one too many times? Because what kind of cruel twist of fate is this?!

There's no way that Master Simon isn't Lieutenant Anders. Not after the mention of the e-mail, and then the scratches on his back.

Should I tell him, or just let things be as they are? On the one hand, I shouldn't be playing with firea superior officer like this, but on the other, if I unmask to him at the club, that's a violation of the rules we both set. Ah... so this is what torment in limbo is like?

I was so tempted a few times, even with O'Connor there, to just beg him or present for him or do something to give away who I was too. He's going to eventually find out, there's no doubt about it, but will he be angry and mad at me when he does for not telling him sooner? Because as hot and delicious as my Master is, Lt. Anders really is a great guy, flyboy or not.

This can have a happy ending, can't it?

I've been so remiss about writing in this thing for so long now, but there'd never been much reason to do so before and I hadn't been willing to make time for it either.

But last weekend is most definitely worth a mention, and that might've the best weekend of my life. Simon is... wow, so many things. A wonderful Master, a skilled Dom, and it might be too early to think it, but a caring partner. I wish I could spend most nights with him, but I don't think it's possible, not yet, and I'm not sure I'm up to ask him and have there be a possibility that he'll decline my offer. Yes, slow is good.

And I hope I get to spend the long weekend with him too. We're supposed to talk about it tomorrow night, and I hope I get him all to myself from Friday evening through Monday evening. Picnics and barbecues are great, but I've needed a Dom like him for long enough to not mind about missing those things.

Yep, definitely hooked!